Its Okay Not To Be Okay...

How are you?

I mean the real you.
The you thats been stuffed inside, hidden beneath a shell.
The you that comes out when no ones around.
The you that your soul is made up of;
that part of you, the whole you, the real you...

How are you
And don't say you're fine.
Because you're not.
How could you be
You've been torn apart from your very own existence - torn apart from your Maker.
To a place galaxies and milky ways apart.
Where no one quite understands you.
Where no one understands that the smile stuck on your face has been glued on by tears.
Where no one understands that when you say you're okay, you're not.
You're far from it.
But its okay not to be okay.

This is not me saying it but the Lord of you and me.
He says;
"Oh my servants who have transgressed against themselves, do not despair of the mercy of ﷲ Indeed, ﷲ forgives all sins. Indeed it is He who is the forgiving, the merciful" - 39:53
And with that in mind, I returned to my Lord.
I left the whispering tempations of this Dunya.
I turned away from faces from whom I was forever waiting for a "how are you?".

And instead I faced the Qiblah.
I turned to ﷲ
The One who calls me five times a day.
The One who descends from His majestic throne in a manner that befits Him every night to the lowest heaven;
For you. For me.
And I said the following;
Oh my Lord, the King of all Kings and everything on the heavens and the earth.
Oh my Lord, the King of all that is seen and all that is unseen.
Glory be to you, the most majestic, the mightiest and the most merciful.
I call to You with nothing but a broken Heαrt .
I call to You with nothing but a worn out soul.
I call to You with nothing but myself.
My entire self.
Because I know that is all you ask for;
Myself.

In a world where people expect more than myself or the false version of myself,
You want myself.
Me with all my sins and my sorrows.
Me with all my broken-ness and tiredness.
You want ME.
So I surrendered.
Because isn't that all what we want?
That night I turned to Him with a heavy heart and that night I re-turned to Him with a lighter heart.
Its okay not to be okay.
Just make sure you tell ﷲ that you're not okay